peace n blessings an shit!
this is, in all likelihood, the last weblog entry I will write on thatbitch.com. yessir, I'm retiring from the personal weblog shit. but more jay-z then johnny carson type retirement in that I am not fading into any kind of obscurity. I'm cutting out what I no longer have a great amount of passion for to concentrate my energy on loftier goals.
basically I feel restricted...this may sound really stupid considering it's my website and I should be able to bend and twist it into whatever I want at the time, but when you've maintained a website for nearly six years, it takes on a life of it's own. the writing I've done here as of late has been shaped to fit whatever bubble I've unwittingly solidified and its suffocating...and for some reason I can't seem to break out of that mess. I'm obviously not the same person I was when I started this site. the very first version of thatbitch had boobies and ass and tiddies and provocative, brash opinions and very much fit the name. but I've grown up. I've graduated from college, I've gone through a couple very serious relationships, I have a child, I pay taxes, nigga got a 401k an shit...and I'm actually not much of a bitch anymore. and I'm kinda over writing in such explicit detail about my personal life...I'm at the point now where I wanna keep some things to myself at least as far as the i-net goes. I'm still planning on releasing a book in the future, but now I can chronicle freshness instead of trying to sell heads rehashed content already accessible for free on a website. plus, my site is blocked in libraries, son...you can't even access a domain with the word bitch in it from a lot of public i-net hubs. the shock value of telling people my domain name has totally expired for these reasons and more.
that being said, I'm not selling my domain or giving it away or raffling the shit off or anything even remotely close. like the drunk third cousin at the family reunion the motherfucker still got my love. I haven't yet decided what I wanna do with it but if you ever wanna find me on the i-net, you will always be able to do so via this url - whether it forwards elsewhere or lists my other projects in plain html, I've spent too many years tying my name to this site to simply discard it. I'll hopefully have more time in the new year to update phattygirl with all the new projects I've completed and will be completing in the near future. I also have the upcoming beautifulstruggle.com, a girl vs. boy topic-based weblog with christopher that I mentioned previously but still haven't had the time to really complete. I'm also working on a community to coincide with the pin-up project I first mentioned a couple months ago as well as a brand to house what I have in mind for it. I would be stupid not to take advantage of the name recognition I've built by discarding all digital aspirations. basically, I'm not dropping off the face of the i-net, this personal weblog thing just isn't really doing it for me at the moment. my heart ain't in it, I hardly update as it is, there are hundreds of heads better at it then me, and instead of concentrating on that which doesn't move me, I'd like to concentrate my attention into what does. this newness I have in my head makes me feel excited about the potential of the internet again, and I really haven't felt that way in years.
I've done a lot of shit with this site over the years...I've had group projects galore ("the beautiful people" being the best of the bunch - I never should've abandoned that), brilliant, sexy and smart guest writers (stacey, jai, sidney, resha, c, melissa), the havoc board (which is also bowing out)...I've had very talented copycats (lord knows what they'll do now)...hundreds of women have written my name on their breasts...I would've never met the love of my life, the former mr. headshotz.org christopher e. richards, had I not built this site (nor fought with him for years via this site)...man, I'm proud of all I have built here and the influence, however small, I've had on the entire "scene". I'm happy about the friends I've made, the visitors who've left comments and/or emailed me with support, the love I've received from likeminded individuals. I'm grateful to those who have linked me for years and continued to big me up way after I stopped returning the favor. it's time for me to start climbing, is all, and I hope every single one of you come with me. this shit was only the beginning yo.
love,
sarah
a.k.a. on-the-grind-all-the-time HUNY C. YOUNG